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Don't. Let. Go.

i'm the kind of kid that can't let anything go

Book #4; good book
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This Lullaby By Sarah Dressen

"Whenever you made a choice, especially one you'd been resisting, it always affected everything else, some in big ways, like a tremor beneath your feet, others in so tiny a shift you hardly noticed a change at all. But it was happening."

"What did it feel like, I wondered, to love someone that much? So much that you couldn't even control yourself when they came close, as if you might just break free of whatever was holding you and throw yourself at them with enough force to easily overwhelm you both."

"And all of it came down to one thing: love, or the lack of it. The chances we take, knowing no better, to fall or to stand back and hold ourselves in, protecting our hearts with the tightest of grips."

Book #3
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Girls In Love by Jacqueline Wilson

Book #1 & #2
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Music Supervision By Ramsay Adams, David Hnatiuk, and David Weiss

It Happened To Nancy By An Anonymous Teenager

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Why can't everyone wrap it around their thick heads that there are other people out there that care about you too?

Stop being so Goddamn selfish.


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I watch the stars light up at night
Until I realize they turned out to be just satellites
I watch the sun set over the water
Until it disappears and then why even bother

You'd think it'd be easy to let it go
But you have no idea
You don't even know

Bridge
Could you give me a sign
Show me a little light
At the end of my dark tunnel
I'd be eternally grateful

Chorus
If you could send someone to save me
I know it's a lot to ask
But I wouldn't do it if I didn't mean it
Cause I'm not sure how much longer I can last
Don't tell me it's just a phase
It's so much more than that

I watch the cars go passing by
Until they turn into little blurs of light
I watch the rain fall out of the sky
Until the desert sand rings it dry

You'd think it wouldn't be this hard
But you have no idea
How much this hurts

Bridge
Could you give me a sign
Show me a little light
At the end of my dark tunnel
I'd be eternally grateful

Chorus
If you could send someone to save me
I know it's a lot to ask
But I wouldn't do it if I didn't mean it
Cause I'm not sure how much longer I can last
Don't tell me it's just a phase
It's so much more than that

I watch people play their little games
Until they're so drunk they can't remember their name
I watch people I love fall from grace
Until I realize it was only my mistake

I never thought it would be this hard
I had no idea how much it would hurt

Chorus
If you could send someone to save me
I know it's a lot to ask
But I wouldn't do it if I didn't mean it
Cause I'm not sure how much longer I can last
Don't tell me it's just a phase
It's so much more than that

Bridge
Could you give me a sign
Show me a little light
At the end of my dark tunnel
I'd be eternally grateful

Chorus
If you could send someone to save me
I know it's a lot to ask
But I wouldn't do it if I didn't mean it
Cause I'm not sure how much longer I can last
Don't tell me it's just a phase
It's so much more than that

No matter what you think, you are alone
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She's always tryin' to be
Some independent girl who is never in need
But 20 years in this town
She still relys on me to find her way around

Because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
She's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
She just wants somebody around
Who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
She just wants somebody to see
She's just a little girl

When I think too much
The voices in my head are silenced by her touch
She hates bein alone
And babytalks to me when we're on the phone

Because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
She's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
She just wants somebody around
Who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
She just wants somebody to see
She's just a little girl

In a world that moves too fast
She's afraid she'll never last
But if she holds the faith of a child
She'll be alright... she'll be alright

Because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
She's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
She just wants somebody around
Who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
She just wants somebody to see
She's just a little girl

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You are the loneliest girl in the world
Taking your hits as they come
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And tonight you’d fall for anyone

It’s in the way you fall down to bed
It’s in the way you cry when he’s not looking

You are the loneliest girl in the world
I’ll watch you die a thousand times again
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And I just want to make it go away
And I just want to make it go away

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Family is THE ONLY thing that matters. It's sad to say that I'm not fortunate enough to see any of my family that much. They are spread out between four or five states, and there's not even that much of us, but I've come to realize that they are the ones that never let you down and are always there for you. There are some friends that you consider family and they should know how lucky they are to be thought of in that group. I've got a couple of those, and I'm just as blessed that they have chosen to be a part of my life.

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And I'm wondering how people I grew up with could grow up into people I wish I never, ever knew

It's impossible for any of us to take the freakin stick out of our asses for even a second. On the other hand, half of us don't even care to try. I never thought it would fall apart this bad. I never thought it would last forever, but I thought we'd be smart enough to keep it together... at least until the end of the year. But now that seems too much to ask, and any attempt at reconciliation goes unnoticed and brushed off, as if everyone's too good to go back to how it used to be. And that's the sad thing, that we have some of us who crave the gathering and would give anything for just one more time, and then the others couldn't care less. We have to ask ourselves why they don't care, and why we do. It's a fucking shame, but I don't think it can be stopped. I guess this is growing up.

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I hope my smile
can distract you
I hope my fists
can fight for two
So it never has to show
And you’ll never know

I hope my love
can blind you
I hope my arms
can bind you
So you’ll never have to see
What we’ve grown to be

One may think
we’re alright
But we need pills
to sleep at night
We need lies
to make it through the day
We’re not ok

One may think
we’re doing fine
But if I had to lay it on the line
We’re losing ground
with every passing day
We’re not ok

But that’s one thing
I would never
One thing I would never
That’s one thing
I would never say to you

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note to self: hair a success

so five straighteners in four years... that's not good. i've re-bought the same one for the third time today. it says it has a two year warranty... apparently not. i really actually wanted the $44 one, but i just bought some clothes, so i couldn't afford to splurge on this, but next time for sure.

5 1/2 weeks left, I think. can't come fast enough.

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It was just something that had to be done

I'm going to miss it very much, I miss it already

Unfortunately I can not afford to keep up with it, and will not be able to in the future

It was unavoidable, and inevitable

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